oh hehe. blogging again. duno ah. i read the flasher`s blog. dayah lah saper lagik. hahahaa. i remembered the other tim when we went to central.. i slipped on a puddle of water when i wana avoid it!! paisey. gawd. at that time dayah jus wanted to say that she pity me cos im alwaex the target of the morons. then when that happened she took back her words sia. idiot. paiseh. paiseh. hahaha. tapi biar ah!! hahaha. now the embarassing part to embarass this azwani. neopix! P.S: i feel and lookk the TALLEST in the pix!!

oh what the hell. you duno what lies beneath ahhhh !

retards, say ahh~ AZ MUKER STEAM!!! sweet LADIES ok

arghh!! was late today again!!! i`ve had it man. asek2 kene marah. this time was fucken siti. fuck sia. ughh! she called home. leong called home. everyone loves my mom. then had to brisk walk around field 3 times i think. gawd.. this few days have been fucken hot sia. humid humid. during home room leong gave out our class photo!! yey yey. finally my picture was perfect for my last year. goshh~ amazing! hahaha. i got the informal one to be real big. 8R. the candid and formal was small. memories of class 4e2. the lazy class. idiot sia mr sim. oh well aft school went to study chem with fajrina. i hope she learnt many things.. cos i think i dint teach her enough. im so distracted. then we have Social Studies remedial at 2.30. class was divided into 2. the clever ones did the exercise while the stupid ones did revision. well i was the stupid side. wakakaka. i only know merger.. not much abt separation. so then, stayed back at the hut with gajos, kambeng and this idiot. hes an indian and his grandmom is chinese!! wakaka. then at 5, me and kambeng left. yes yes. kambeng is APIT. hahaha! he walked me home. then we saw what apit claimed to be akiff`s father. we were arguing that that person is not akiff`s dad. it was goin to rain. sky was cloudy.. sun`s hiding behind the big puffy clouds. hahaha. well, he is kambeng bcos he said that he was afraid of the rain. and yeah! kambeng kambeng kambeng was what he chanted all the way till the junction where we had to depart. hahaha. bye bye. cant see ya in school next year. gona mish you guys loads. and LOADS. kambeng baaaaaahh~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA !!!!!!!!

hahaha. sorry leh! its not i forgot.. i remember. its that i forgot to wish you! hahaha. 28th september nadia bdae. late by one day only. yeah. on monday was ARIFF`s bdae. wakakaka. so, overall prelim results, i flung my combine humans, and my malay drop giler. i was fucking fucking fucking disappointed with my malay. gosh.. haiiz.. duno what to say seh.. makin terok ah. fuck fuck fuck. god help me.. my L1R4 was not satisfying at all.

now i realise that i cannot afford to lose my friends. gawd.. i don`t ever wana leave Coral! hw can i face new pple in new schools.. haiz.. i love my secondary school frends siia.

damn it.. i FAILED my combined humans. shiet. and my malay was like.. babi siia.. tried my best but i got a b4. 53/80. disappointing siia. arghh!! luckily my darling had comforted me. the one that had a huge impact on me was my social studies. i mean wth sia. i studied hard fer it. dint think that i could fail just like that.. wonder how my Os will be like. WORSE i assume. in just an hour my darling made me realise what humans are. that we feel the same way and stuffs. haiis.. when we had to leave, i realise that i will lose someone very special. someone that fucking mean a lot to me. dude, tears were streaming down my cheeks when we turned our back against each other. i know that we would go our own separate ways. I KNEW IT. but.. haiz.. i just wish that time would just slow down.

gosh!! got my prelim papers today. did well for maths paper 1 ONLY. hahaha. duno what will happen to paper 2. gt A1!! yeahahaha. then chem was alright.. combined science can get roughly C5. geog was way terok. failed paper 2. dint get to finish sia wth! lost about more than 30 marks. well i gt 43, joti gt TWICE my marks!! idiot!! hahahaha. congrats to ida. very proud of her. she improved! hehex.. then that was what i got today. hmm.. cant wait for my malay. scared i dont get any As.. arghh!! stress.. stress.. kk. then aft skool walked to central with the five besties. the two morons [dayah and seha] kept chanting "porno watcher porno watcher porno watcher", "hooker hooker hooker" and "stripper stripper stripper". hahaha! see i told you guys, they are RETARDS! hell yeah! hahaha.yeah. ate ice cream with jotii. she is a geek. i hate her!!

so! on thursday, 22nd september 2005, i went out with 3 full pledged idiots named seha, az and dayah. they were utterly amazing, showing me their circus skills. they entertained me all day. seha was my unfortunate partner. no, no. i was seha`s unfortunate partner! but i love her as my lesby partner. she rawks! so, buddy system buddy system! being the big sister there, me and dayah had to take care of the other 2 december babis. hahahaha. ate at LJS. met FATTAH. hahaha. gossipped abt him. i want to sue LJS cos they serve the worse TREASURE HUNT meal!! hahaha. idiot. then we go to ToySrus. seha btol ah. hahahaha. mcm cacat. dayah kept making fun of me!! nanti kau dayah, jage kau! you see, i was really in love with this remote controlled airplane. you should see the expression on my face; not one to LAUGH at but one to be inspired. cheyy!! kau dgr tuu dayah. hahahaha! da huru-hara huru-hara kiter amek neoprint. kecoh seh! the machine was like. "Bjdghhewd". idiot. i dint wana go take neoprint seh. cheyy! hahaha. one of the pic si azwani tuu muker steam!! wait i put up the neoprints. hahaha. kiter take 81 balek. seha cacat lagi. hahaha. then on sat went to lavender to take bursary. was late thanx to.. ME. hahaha. so tk dpt get the bursary by presentation, you know must shake hand. but after that got get lah. you know what i mean. okey! we went to wedding at katong cc take 12! gosh gt this fucking and i swear FUCKING handsome guy, he was like so freaking.. gosh!! i duno how to say. he got that model body, can fucking win jon johnson. he wear white collared tee which is stark on his body. woooo!! hot*hot! he wear his shades with his black painted nails and his hair is SLICK. mr SUAVE. goshh ~ he look modsy siia. eh his hair rock siia. then sumore his flawless skin.. clean and fair skinned. oh wow! he got a muscular structured jaw. siallah can melt sia. gosh i was melting in the bus. oh what the heck. hahahaha. okey he is charming. damn~ then at the wedding my mom busted me. cos i using skool uni then must sit outside sia cannot come in cc. the best part is, we went to arab street later!! went shopping and shopping. look for lining and lace for my this year baju kebaya modern! yey yey its WHITE. seha, wana be my lesby partner? wana wear white? hehe! kk.. went shopping and shopping around arab street. mom pampers me with stuffs this year cos its my last year. and she planned to make another baju raye for me. i dont want!!! wasting money sia. so, went home. yeah went home. today went mosque with malek and parents. went home straight away sleep till 5 sia. sleepy sleepy. ohh.. hehe. nadia, do you want to listen to lighthouse or firehouse? hahahahkz!

i wana go home~ hahaha this song fiqah keep singing. AND danial beddingfield`s "if you`re not the one" is stuck in my head!!! bcos of tt freak, JOTI. thank you, JOTI. "i hope i love you all my life~".. nyiehahahas!! idiot.. oh well yest i gt social studies which rock loike hell!! i`ve made my greatest achievement!! after 4 years of doing unfinished humanities essays, i FINALLY GET TO FINISH THE PAPER!! wahooo! tts what i`m proud of. i`m proud of ma baby. wakakaka! welo welo ida belo!! hahaha. woii cheeseball! bila mau pegi tgk wayang?! kater jer nk.. wa rebat lu.. hahaha! k chiows!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG !!!!

hehe.. today its my big bro`s 24th bdae!! hahaha. jus nw gt maths.. maths okay ah cn say easy.. bt geog!! fuhlermakk!! susah gilerr.. dint manage to finish it.. den after skool went to shop in front of skool. bought brownie fr my bro! see! my savings of $2.20.. all down the drain. hahaha. cos u noe what? i came home.. and saw a big box of brownie! her gf give laa.. hahaha. he say he full already. bt at least i remembered his bdae! hahaha. my mom laughed. cos she say he pity my bro cos like we hina him. me n his gf buy brownie fr him.. da lah dier hitam. haha. busted siia my mom. cool! haha. k lah tts all.. EYB!

so i had my eng prelim paper which suck like SHIT!!!!!!! tt was fucking paper 2. made many careless mistakes i noe i shouldn`t have made. fuck fuck fuck. damn it what if i fail???!!! shit!! da laa.. what`s done is done. look on the brightside.. wait till i see hw much i get for my prelims then i cry.. alaa.. k laa nvm. EYB!

hehe just came back home from my aunt`s. she wanted to sell her house, and someone wants to come over bt she was alone at home with her granddaughter who is such a bitch. hahaha. since my mom was fasting and my aunt is old and alone, i volunteered to come over to help. my mum is kinda weak when she fast so i really pitied her and put my studies aside for awhile. weee! it was freaking raining took 39 there. i tot i was lost bt luckily i found my way there. her adopted granddaughter who was abt.. 3 yrs old? name ameera.. or WANT to be known as siti nurhaliza. shes so freaking irritating bt fun to be with. she keeps on hitting me!! idiot!! i want to eat also tkde PEACE ! and when i feed her she bit my fingers. ewww!! she hit my head with TWO botol susu. busted siia.. pikeh kepale aku mainan ker.. bt all my "hardwrok" there was paid off with 5 bucks.. syillings. hahahaha. bt yeah i love my aunt like i loved my late grandmom. missed her.. oh well! it was raining with thunder at lightning. my aunt dint let me go till it was 6.30 and i left. when i was at the bus stop, tgh diri nyer diri.. skali gt a flash of bright white light right in front of me! gosh i was freaking out. took 39 home. and i was breathing very heavily when i reached home. gawd! the pathway home was full of stupid worms! idiot!!!!!!!!!!!

to start it off, today was one hell of a day! gt my prelims practical. i did a mistake in my physics prac. shucks.. lost 2 marks. bt chem wasn`t that bad.. i hope. then we were held up in auditorium till 12.30pm. dint do much.. jus crapping around and talking non-stop bullshit abt stuffs. yeah STUFFS. NEWS. tts the terms me and idz use. yeap.. and aft skool az fadz and geek went to delifrance to hv their lunch. joti went back home. and as fr me, i hang ard with wan and hamdan. thats when man pendek and wan gadget came that i hv to leave cos i don`t fit in. nw im feeling so lonely. the rain is pouring.. just the way i like. it makes me feel happy. hope it rains like this every single day. i will love my life. when rain pours down and there is mist which makes it sooo cooling, i imagined myself being at esplanade, riverside. its so peaceful.. or in LONDON! i love it, i love it. wish and wish. hope and hope. dream and dream.

haiis. looking out of the window, my life flashed past me. friendship, love, family are all part of my life. studies, well yeah sort of. haha.. somehow i feel like i don`t fit in. i`ve made many friends, hope i don`t make enemies along the way. just nw after skool i was with wan. we were nt as b4. we dint talk much; there`s nothing to talk abt! it feels like i don`t fit in. i hate being pushed around. i hate being a lamppost. i hate being ALONE. i feel that im losing friends more than i make friends. some friends hav started their new life and cast me away. well i think SOME. i don`t know. im just being stupiid. i just don`t know why i just can`t stand up for myself. why the hell can i stand up for my friends, bt not myself?! shitonics.. so not in the mood right now. gota cool myself down first. signing off.............

hah! same experience with GEEK. saw Mr Roach in my house. my BEDROOM. tt happened 3 daes ago while i was chatting then suddenly ewww!! it was fucking right beside me on the window grills and i fucking freak out! like duhh i ran outta my room and alerted the whole house. mom was the brave one. she wrestle with Mr Roach with only her hands! and i was like ewww!!and i immediately switched off the comp and slept in my moms room! teehee. and the next day was Mrs Roach. she died, sadly.. my brother saw it and took my paper and BAM! Mrs Roach was crushed. =) sad eyy.. hehe! malek became the cleaner. i told him to throw away the paper even tho i duno wad paper tt is. oh well, last night was Lil Roach bad dayy. suffered and tortured under the hands of ERYY. hah! it sure looked like a cockroach. it was the size of.. an ANT! bt slightly bigger and rounder. i took a small transparent cup and with full blasted courage and semangat yg gemilang, i placed it on top of tt small flying Lil Roachh. goshh! abt an hour later or so, i still kept close watch on it till it overturned and capsized. hehe! im nt bad its jus tt grrr cocokroaches really ruin my dayy. beating roaches cn be fun. you cn feel the excitement in you and also the hair at the back of your neck will surely stand. freakyy huh. dont mess with eryy you lil ROACHES!

today nvr go out. standard ah. bangon kol brape. i was woken up by lagu green day malek played on the comp. irritating sia!! den my annoying jiran wana pindah. yay! hahaha. okey lah. mayb part of me want them to go bt part of me dont let ah. nanti sunyi seh tingkat 3.. den ab came over. introduced to him n malek "pantene leave-on mosturizer". hahaha. jakon seh satu2. hey guesssss wad! yest i watch HOT CHICKS. mind you, its nt WHITE CHICKS. was funny ah the show. abit disgusting.. tt rob schneider is funny. and the show also sad sia. abt frendship n relationship. almost cried. hahaha. kental ah eryy. k tkper. gt one guy name billy is kewt. hahaha. okay go watch!!! hahaha. den last night i gt 2 weird dreams. one was fucking weird the other one was more fucking weird. hahaha i will tell abt the more fucking weird. it was on a scholl day and i told my parents i want to go out. i went out with az, fadz, fiqah, shaz n nab. those pple were the ones i remembered in my dreams. i tink my cuzzie also gt ah. wokey.. den all1 2 3 4 5 6 of us go airport. took a 7 n a half hour plane ride to london! serious. ngan baju skola n bag skola skali.. hahaha. den wen reach there so many things happen n i cnt figure it out. suddenly i met my uncle. uncle sghdhsg i duno his name. he said he is my uncle. den suddenly i met dis guy. he seems to be my bf. its like my memory all erased n cnt rmbr him. he suddenly leaned on me n hug me n stuffs n i was like wth. den many things happened, soon it was daytime there. the scenery was so nwice. was cold. morning dew.. den there is those misty2.. wow.. den suddenly my cellphone ring. n tt was my dad. he was like "pukol brape nk balek nie! da kol 12 mlm pon tk balek2!" den i was like wth! i looked at the clock on my phone and saw tt it was 11.45 PM! den fiqah was like.. the sun rises in the east and sets at the west. haha. n i noe tt i wud be dead if i were to reach home 7 n a half hour later! bt it was fun tho. coolios! wished i cud cont my dream bt wth!

yest and todae gt mock den i semangat yg gemilang i go. shitonics siia must wake up in the morning.. bt den i slept in the hut a while ah siia.. den mrs aziz my fav. tcher blanje canadian pizza. gerek eh! all together fr e2 n e3 gt 16 boxes! tt means she oredered 8. cos its 2 4 1 0 2 4 1. hahaha.. i ate the BBQ chicken. sedap siia!! serious shit.. sedap giler. den i ate one meat lovers. nt much happened dis few daes.. nima slept over. oh did i tell u tt? aww pityy u!! she went back home on mondae. i sent her to ct hall den went to coffee bean! siallah gt dis kewt guy work der. hahaha. aper lagik nima kluakn hp ah. she took his pic. no i mean i took the pic for HER. hahahha. yesterday go MUSTAFA CENTRE! oh wow! reach there only i happy siia! feel like in bollywood movie.. hum tumhe pyaar karte hai~~ weee ! hahahha. gereks gi shopping and buy impt stuffs! ate at ABM. nasi bryani dier power! pedas gilerrr!! den went hm.. watched SOUL PLANE. fuck it! its a must watch siia. gerek ah the show. ONE LOVE! PEACE! hahaha. damn funny siiak the show. i tink its rated M18 cos there are some mature themes. hahaha. oh wth! its freaking funny yo! hehe. k lah wana chow. oii! prasaan tk? ader skin baruu! my face lagik. nima was the photographer. hey yo bitch! thx yeah. lurve ya! MUACKS!

sup ya`all ! nyiehahas . tadi tgk cerite ALI SETAN abe tertido . makk ngantok seh . eh guess wad ! yest i shud call "My Brothers Day" cos both freaks make me happy and fulfil my cravings . was watching the kewt lil` brats in kindergarten cops , wen i saw wad i saw . MILK . hahahaha ! its been a day or two since i had my last milk and suddenly i was craving fr it . den like 15 mins later my big bro came home from duno wer at bought 2 HL milk bottle ! wah0o ! hahaha . i drank half of it . yo , i wana be tall dude . den aft tt , i`ve longed fr a snowcap . dont blardee hell ask why i want a snowcap , bt yeah i`ve been wanting it wen on tt same night , malek brought home a black SNOWCAP ! nyiehahaha . i tried it on . he looked gd on it [yea ryte ~] . den tried it on . hey guess wad ! im gona cut my hair my own style . saw one of nadzir`s d.p . the emo grrl . preety nwice hair . i reali want tt . hahaha . nwice . hehehehuhuhu . okay lah . duno ah suddenly i feel bad aft reading her blogg . =(